I went to Jarod's wedding today...a college roommate from bridgewater...it was a small and quaint wedding. I was blessed to see several people from college some of which I had not even seen since graduation I think. But the one thing it really did was it encouraged me to stay focused and continue to press on worship God where I am now in life.
Its something I struggle with at times. Going to weddings and becoming frustrated that I'm not there with the person I want to be there with. The prideful part of me says 'God what are you doing? I mean I have it more together than this dude or this girl'...but thats not it at all. God is refining me and teaching me so much that now thats the last thought in my head. Sure I want to be married someday and share my life with someone but right now I need to focus on loving Christ and letting Him be enough for me. One day I might be married and one day my body wouldnt be mine anymore but I still need to cling to Christ for everything. There are ways that my future spouse, if God wills that to happen, will never be able to provide and I need to grow with Him now and learn how to hold on to Him through all circumstances....
the verse that sums up my past few weeks and really what God is teaching me now is Psalm 73:26:
But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
God...thank you so much...please let me let you be enough....amen
