try imagining a love so great that when it experiencing it you feel like you understand more of life and why God has created us the way He has....this is the type of love I feel for my sister.
through a conversation tonight between my family i realized so much more about my sister. the conversation had a large part to do with her and where she spends next year....but i really saw way beyond that. I saw her step up and be a woman....one of maturity...one of character...one of love...
my sister has been through so much. so much more than i could have ever have imagined her going through in this life especially when it comes to the complexity of our family situation but i really see her rise above all challenges that come her way with Christ. She is amazing in Him...she is growing in Him and banking on Him being the God He claims to be....that to me makes me weep because she gets it....she trusts Him.
As I was riding in the car tonight with her one the way to dinner with her and I just couldnt help but feel the depth of pain for us to go through parting again soon....it pains my heart and tears flow from my face as I write this and think of leaving this amazing woman that God has allowed to be my sister. Its hard to leave when you dont know the next time you will see her....it hurts my heart every time I think about it....every single time. I dont like it at all.
I am so proud of her....proud of who she is and who she is becoming. God has created an amazing woman in Sarah-Wynne Breckenridge Eppes. I know we are not promised any length of time together beyond this second but I just look forward to the next few days and I just praise our most glorious King tonight for creating something so incredibly beautiful in my sister...
I love you so much Wynnie....so freakin much...I am so so so soooo blessed to have you as my sister...
Saturday, June 28, 2008
my sister
Friday, June 27, 2008
pressin on
People have asked me lately, "Are you excited to start your job?"....honestly that question really takes some thought. I know this is where God has me to go in His will right now but there are still some 'what if ...' thoughts. Thoughts of what if I would be in a relationship right now right now or what if Athletes in Action would have accepted me in March. I know this is something I need to die to daily and pursue Christ on the road to Tallahassee but at times it doesnt come that easy.
My heart though is moving forward and growing in its acceptance of God's will and realizing there is so much opportunity to serve Him in the here and now. I used to tell other people this..'everyday is the most important day of your walk with Christ'...now that it something that I feel like I am really trying to apply. There have been many days of heartache....there are many days where I wish I was just raising support for Athletes in Action but I press on...but with this job in Tallahassee God has given me an amazing opportunity to seek and serve Him and so I press on in that. SO when people are asking me now if I am excited about my job I tell them I am more excited to impact people and build relationships there than the actual job because after all I am there to make a difference for Jesus Christ....to tell people of His amazing story and His love for each and every one of us through the cross. I am so looking forward to meeting coaches and administrators and student-athletes with every relationship forged with an opportunity available to
give glory to God and share His truth. God's vision is much bigger than mine for my ministry to others in Tallahassee but I go with the faith that God will show up in huge ways through obedience and supplication to Him.
I am excited about this journey to Florida again because I will be taking it with many of you all. If you are checking and reading this blog then that for sure tells me you care about me in an extraordinary way. I thank all of you for reading even if its just 1,2, or 15 people. I pray that you all feel comfortable leaving comments and thoughts but even if you just read it means the world to me. Thanks for the incredible support each one of you gives me on a daily basis....
holla back
- Philippians's 3:12
Saturday, June 21, 2008
wedding day
I went to Jarod's wedding today...a college roommate from bridgewater...it was a small and quaint wedding. I was blessed to see several people from college some of which I had not even seen since graduation I think. But the one thing it really did was it encouraged me to stay focused and continue to press on worship God where I am now in life.
Its something I struggle with at times. Going to weddings and becoming frustrated that I'm not there with the person I want to be there with. The prideful part of me says 'God what are you doing? I mean I have it more together than this dude or this girl'...but thats not it at all. God is refining me and teaching me so much that now thats the last thought in my head. Sure I want to be married someday and share my life with someone but right now I need to focus on loving Christ and letting Him be enough for me. One day I might be married and one day my body wouldnt be mine anymore but I still need to cling to Christ for everything. There are ways that my future spouse, if God wills that to happen, will never be able to provide and I need to grow with Him now and learn how to hold on to Him through all circumstances....
the verse that sums up my past few weeks and really what God is teaching me now is Psalm 73:26:
But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
God...thank you so much...please let me let you be enough....amen
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Saturday, June 14, 2008
no title yet...
I dont have a title yet for this blog as Im just trying to think of one. For the last few weeks I have just been inspired to blog from the suggestions of others and that this is a place where I find myself really able to express what is truly on my heart as I seek to bring God glory with this life he has given me....
I want to be real with this blog...I want people to see the true me and nothing less....
